Ok, finally got around to changing the introduction text. But as you can see, I'm too sianz to write a proper one, so am going to blabber on in hopes that you will get an idea of what sort of person I am by guessing. Yeah, the format of this blog is crap. I haven't got around to fixing it. Later lah.. Much later...
Surprise surprise.. or at least for me. That when two people love each other, more often than not, one party loves the other more.
There's always one person who will always give in at a deadlock. Always one person who is willing to change more, to give more. Always one person who is more scared than the other that the other person will dislike them, will hate them, will leave them.
Maybe I've never realised how much I didn't care till I cared too much.
ME signed off at 10:47 AM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
100th entry
Recently, I don't know what it is, but I feel as if I'm starting to lose my grasp on sanity. Is it hormones, is it work... or what? I don't know - but nowadays I feel as if I can't be left alone, because when the silence of the mind overwhelms me, I start to feel as if I'm slowly going out of my mind.
I don't really know what it is. Is is minor, is it major? Can it be helped or is it something perhaps every person goes through? At certain parts of the day, I strangely feel as if there's something that is slowly unraveling my mind - but I can't identify what exactly it is. At other times of the day, I'm perfectly placid with my sanity restored. Odd.
ME signed off at 1:46 PM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
99th entry
What does one do when mortality comes knocking at your door?
Eventual death has always been a fact of life. From cradle to grave, death has been an ever undeniable fact; known at bone-depth to both babe and adult, unsaid but expected.
But when you're young, I haven't forgotten the subconscious belief of immortality! You know death is always at the horizon, but youth denies the possibility that it'll ever arrive. You do risky things, you take chances. You court death, never thinking that he might take the hint.
But what does one do when mortality comes knocking at your door? Such disappointment, such irritation. Such fear, such loathing. To stave him off, now you have to do the running. No longer an unknown entity, you face the night knowing him as a bedside fellow.
ME signed off at 4:20 PM
Thursday, October 08, 2009
96th entry
Bad me, I'm somewhat of an escapist.
When faced with things I do not understand or do not know what to do with, I choose to walk away - and instead deal with it by re-compartmentalize my life.
Shut it up in a box and place it to the side and far away. Muffled behind a door, I can go about functioning as per normal - the other components of my life unaffected by the disruption. An idiot's first reaction nevertheless? Yes I know, I know.
ME signed off at 1:50 AM
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
95th entry
To socialize into a group is not the responsibility of an individual; it's the responsibility of the group to practise inclusiveness.
If a newcomer fails to integrate into a group, it is the failure of the group - not the newcomer.
Many a times I feel people tend to throw the onus and initiative of creating new bonds onto the shoulders of someone - whom you must consider - is already dealing with the uncomfortable uncertainty of new surroundings. Totally green of the group culture, people and environment, it's ridiculous to expect a newcomer to integrate in, when it'd take so little effort for each person in the existing group to spare a little thought and practise inclusiveness out.
ME signed off at 4:07 PM
Friday, October 02, 2009
94th entry
If I'm acting tiresome, please bear with me. If I'm withdrawn, unresponsive and dull company, please stay by me. If I am curt, hurtful and do and say things no excuses can cover, please forgive me.
If it's not too much to ask, no matter how incomprehensible I can be, please understand me.
